lost love

Sunday night my beautiful cousin Megan was in a motorcycle accident and she didnt make it. Megan and I were more like sisters then cousins. She was the one person I could tell EVERYTHING to. I will forever miss and love my megan. You will always be my own personal angel. Love you meg

Cant sleep. . My minds singing nursery rhymes

Is spending the night nestled among my fears and tears

New Start

well i finally have my final tomorrow..just one more day and i will be through with summer school and victoria college..and then its off to University of Houston Victoria..so now with 2 associates under my belt, I can finally move on to getting my bachelor..yay! well i guess its off to sleep for me...good night all..wish me luck!

Blinded Path

You follow the path that others take,
With wine on your breath
you're misused; misplaced.
Your bloodshot eyes give off a greedy glow,
As you down that last drink
It begins to show.
I always knew you were one of them,
momentarily blinded by the delicious sin.
It seemed like all fun and games
Until your actions led others to blame.
Like ghosts of the past
You left the bar.
Your guilt ridden mind took you this far.
Your shoulders were laden
With darkenss untold.
As you flew through the night
No wings to unfold.

Endless Possibilities

1 hour and 45 minutes later and Im finally registered for classes in the fall. It seems as thought the farther you get into your degree the harder it is to pick and choose the order of classes you want to take. Originally I take about 13 hours because I have to work full time. Well, I was going to sign up and take 16 hours but my padre talked me out of it. Because wait until you hear the classes Im taking. Its intense. And the sucky thing about UHV is that almost ALL their classes are online classes. Thank God I just bought a brand new computer. Because there is no way my dell would have been able to keep up. Because I changed my major to english I have sooo many english and humanity classes to take. And since I also want to minor in criminal justice, I have alot of cj and pysch classes to take. So my fall semester will go a little like this....

1. Start my morning off with an online Senior Course of Professional Writing
2. Continue on into online Humanities of The Modern Era
3. Have a mid afternoon snack and try not to fall asleep in online Child/Adolescent Pyschology
(whish I honestly think that class is going to be alot of fun and interesting)
4. End my day with Spanish Writing and Composition
(this class will actually be a 3 hour face to face class) -YAY me!
Then its an adios and Im out the door and off to a wonderful warm bed!

Online Crazzies

So Im trying to register for my fall classes and all I keep coming up with is "wrong password". Since I transferred from VC to UHV, Ive had to learn all new passwords,user ids, and names. While I remember by user id I cant seem to remember my password. So like anyone would do I requested a new password to be sent to my email. But its sending it to my college email , which of course I need a password to enter. And what do you know, I have no clue what to do..Augh..Its so frustrating..Of course this always happens to me when the business has already closed for the day. So it seems like Im going to have to be a patient girl and wait till tomorrow..Hope I can...lol..hopefully the college personal will be able to help..

A Living Hell

Today was EXTREMELY hot..I believe we topped out at 106 degrees. Which in my opinion, this has been the hottest summer. Every day this week was 100degrees of hotter. And not only was the heat bad, but I had to go to the doctor. :( It seems like I might be going under the
knife soon..Well, maybe a lazer..lol..The doctor thinks that we probably need to remove my gallbladder. And that is whats causing me to be sick all the time.. I dunno. We are going to do an unltrasound this week and find out. So pray its nothing too seriouse.

Clear Past, Clouded Future

I stare into the past and my heart starts to ache.
I get a clear picture of the way things used to be.
I see how happy I once was and it makes me sad to see
how far I've fallen from being that girl.
Where did I go wrong?
And why am I no longer the carefree girl I once was?
How did I go from being on top of the world,
to feelinglike I no longer belong?
As I gaze into familiar memories,
I come across loved ones that are no longer there,
but still remain anache in my heart.
Oh what I would give to make this ache go away.
But it won't.
Because deep down it knows that the ache is just a broken heart
still full of love.
Love for someone who no longer cares,
Love for the way things once were,
and Love for those willing to make this ache go away.
Because maybe one this ache disappears,
I will go back to being that happy girl.
But until then I will continue on watching a clear past
and gazing into a clouded future.

Here We Go

Well I've always wanted to start a blog, but never knew where to go. Then I stumbled across this website and decided to give it a shot. So much better then posting stories and poems on myspace or facebook. So bare with me as I learn to navigate my way around this site. :)